Sunday, April 11, 2010

Jackson Erin

We learned today that our precious Jackson has passed away. Please pray for us as we grieve losing him - but also as we move forward in making decisions and arrangements. I'm 23+ weeks along and will still have to give birth to him and then bury him, which feels so beyond hard right now.
I noticed that I hadn't felt him moving (even when trying to get him to), so we went to the midwife and there was no heartbeat. We went to the hospital and it was confirmed with an ultrasound that Jackson had passed.
We are heartbroken and crushed, but we still PRAISE God. We KNOW He is good & faithful and that He will bring good out of even this. We are trusting Him, even though we don't begin to understand.
We would covet your prayers for not only peace, but for direction and wisdom as we make hard decisions and arrangements in the coming days.


Sheila said...

Oh Angela, my heart breaks for you all! :-( I will be praying.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family.
Love, TRacy

Anonymous said...

Sandy and Paul are grieving with you... all of our prayers to you and the Sustala family. We love you and miss you tons!

Anonymous said...

Oh Angela and Ed, my heart is just broken for you. I am so very sorry for your family. We will be praying for you and please let me know if you need to is a pain unlike any other. I am so, so sorry :(

Stephanie said...

Dear Angela,

Traci H. sent me to you in hopes that I may be able to offer you support. Amelia, my fourth baby, died one day after her due date and I gave birth to her the next day. This was a short 4 weeks ago. I have been where you are, and am so very sorry.

There are many things you will need to think about and decide upon in the next moments and days. Just remember to breath and don't rush into choices. Many times, those who love us, try and protect us from pain. I will pray that those in your life will support your decisions and give you whatever it is you need, when you need it. I will say one thing...hold your baby and take photographs (there will never be enough of these). This is something that you will not get to re-do. And no one that I have ever spoken to has ever regretted the decision to hold their baby (no matter how little or fragile they are).

If you need to have someone to talk to who "get's it, who has walked your path" please don't hesitate to contact me. I myself received such offers of support from other mama's who had to travel the journey before me, and even with a 'stranger' there is a connection that baby loss parents have. I am so very sorry that your precious baby has flown before you. If you would like to talk, just contact me at (and I will give you my phone #) or visit my blog (so you can get to know me a bit better) at


Dara said...

Im broken for you right now. I am so sorry and I cry with you. I love you and you are in my prayers tonight. May the Lord Hold you in his arms and let his peace fill your hearts with his comfort.
Love you much!

chefstinsonfamily said...

Oh Angela I am devastated. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and Ed during this difficult time.

I'd rather be caving! said...

God, we pray right now that your hand of comfort and peace would be on Ed and Angela and the kids. We claim your promises' that you will be their rock to hold on to in this storm! May they come out the otherside bruised but not broken!
We claim this in your son's name,

Lori Eilers said...

I cannot believe it...I'm so incredibly sorry. I love you all and am praying for the comfort of the Holy Spirit to overwhelm you.

Anonymous said...

Praying for yall. I am so sorry for your loss.

Court said...

I am very sorry for your loss. You and your fam are in my thoughts and prayers. Please let me know if you need anything at all. You are so strong Angela.


Lindsay said...

Aw, Angela. I just had another friend lose her 32-week baby last heart breaks now for you guys. We are praying for you. So, so sorry.

Audra said...

My heart is broken for you guys and you are all in our prayers. We are here if you need anything.